Comments on: Fear http://wraithswrealm.com/blog/2008/02/09/fear/ Wraith's Wrealm Thu, 20 Nov 2008 17:33:07 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.3.3 By: Sharon http://wraithswrealm.com/blog/2008/02/09/fear/#comment-37325 Sharon Thu, 28 Feb 2008 07:53:44 +0000 http://wraithswrealm.com/blog/2008/02/09/fear/#comment-37325 I feel the same fear too...only I *have* had that second rejection, and I am looking to get a third. Only I dont think Im afraid if that so much as how this will open a can of worms for me to deal with as far as my adoptive parents go. They are good people. They gave me a life. I wanted for nothing. AND they have been supportive in my search. But now I feel so different than I did then. I feel real pain, real loss, real grief. And I am afraid I am going to have to reveal that to them and they wont understand. I am as afraid of their rejection of me, the adoptee who is finally coming to terms with who I really am, as I am of getting a third rejection. I just keep thinking: I dont want to end my life without having tried someting. If I die in the fog, no one will find me. So I have to do it myself. I feel the same fear too…only I *have* had that second rejection, and I am looking to get a third. Only I dont think Im afraid if that so much as how this will open a can of worms for me to deal with as far as my adoptive parents go. They are good people. They gave me a life. I wanted for nothing. AND they have been supportive in my search.

But now I feel so different than I did then. I feel real pain, real loss, real grief. And I am afraid I am going to have to reveal that to them and they wont understand. I am as afraid of their rejection of me, the adoptee who is finally coming to terms with who I really am, as I am of getting a third rejection.

I just keep thinking: I dont want to end my life without having tried someting. If I die in the fog, no one will find me. So I have to do it myself.

]]> By: Poor_Statue http://wraithswrealm.com/blog/2008/02/09/fear/#comment-37097 Poor_Statue Sat, 23 Feb 2008 16:21:48 +0000 http://wraithswrealm.com/blog/2008/02/09/fear/#comment-37097 It's interesting what adoption does. I lost any semblance of extroversion after placing my daughter. Although we come from different places, my emotional reaction was so similar. I hope you find your way back. It’s interesting what adoption does.

I lost any semblance of extroversion after placing my daughter. Although we come from different places, my emotional reaction was so similar.

I hope you find your way back.

]]> By: Wraiths http://wraithswrealm.com/blog/2008/02/09/fear/#comment-36754 Wraiths Thu, 14 Feb 2008 15:50:54 +0000 http://wraithswrealm.com/blog/2008/02/09/fear/#comment-36754 Thanks Mia, it's driving me crazy and now it got pushed back another two weeks. Thanks Mia, it’s driving me crazy and now it got pushed back another two weeks.

]]> By: mia http://wraithswrealm.com/blog/2008/02/09/fear/#comment-36747 mia Thu, 14 Feb 2008 13:50:26 +0000 http://wraithswrealm.com/blog/2008/02/09/fear/#comment-36747 You don't always have to be strong. You can be there for each other, take turns. As for your mother- When you are ready you will act. Until then please be gentle with yourself. I hope everything has turned out well for your son. I'm sending good thoughts and prayers my friend. You don’t always have to be strong. You can be there for each other, take turns.
As for your mother- When you are ready you will act. Until then please be gentle with yourself.
I hope everything has turned out well for your son. I’m sending good thoughts and prayers my friend.

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