Comments on: I am I http://wraithswrealm.com/blog/2007/02/28/i-am-i/ Study of adoption Fri, 30 Dec 2011 04:34:00 -0700 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.1 By: Carolyn http://wraithswrealm.com/blog/2007/02/28/i-am-i/#comment-15887 Carolyn Fri, 13 Apr 2007 03:09:09 +0000 http://wraithswrealm.com/blog/2007/02/28/i-am-i/#comment-15887 "I AM" your SISTER, and you forgot to mention me in your blog. I'm not UPSET or ANYTHING though! I KNOW you still LOVE ME!! Right? “I AM” your SISTER, and you forgot to mention me in your blog.
I’m not UPSET or ANYTHING though!
I KNOW you still LOVE ME!!
Right?

]]> By: Cheryl http://wraithswrealm.com/blog/2007/02/28/i-am-i/#comment-15220 Cheryl Thu, 29 Mar 2007 05:56:57 +0000 http://wraithswrealm.com/blog/2007/02/28/i-am-i/#comment-15220 Wow. Maybe I'm like Rebecca, constantly looking for similarities, being another square peg and all. But some of what you wrote, could have been me too. From your list: I barely remember my childhood, only snippets, I was a perfect chameleon as a kid and as an adult, I don’t remember my dreams normally. Only very intense ones and very rarely, I have never been without a boyfriend longer than two weeks, (with gender edit, lol) I did this because I didn’t want to be alone, I work on computers all day and then turn on my computer when I get home, I am a bit insecure, I read like mad, I use all of them as an escape when stressed, I hate math, I need to lose weight, I have never done drugs, and don’t drink, (had to fess up and take the ciggie comment out, since I do smoke, lol) I haven’t done these things because I fear losing myself or control, I love my husband, but spent the first several years of our marriage being convinced if he really knew I wasn't as strong as he thought, he wouldn't love me. It's been the most marvelous gift to realize how wrong I was. I do believe I have issues from my adoption, I also have issues with adoption, I have great adoptive parents and they will always be my parents, I still want to know the ones who created me, The insecurity, the need for control, the feeling like a perfect chameleon who can't even reach back in memory and pick out her own emotions, needs, reactions - very jarring. Joy wrote recently about learning to tell the truth. That's my job for now. Most especially to myself, scary as that is sometimes. I liked your list Wraith. And Mia - thanks for that heads up on the Adoption Show - I need to go find that. Wow. Maybe I’m like Rebecca, constantly looking for similarities, being another square peg and all. But some of what you wrote, could have been me too. From your list:

I barely remember my childhood, only snippets,
I was a perfect chameleon as a kid and as an adult,
I don’t remember my dreams normally. Only very intense ones and very rarely,
I have never been without a boyfriend longer than two weeks, (with gender edit, lol)
I did this because I didn’t want to be alone,
I work on computers all day and then turn on my computer when I get home,
I am a bit insecure,
I read like mad,
I use all of them as an escape when stressed,
I hate math,
I need to lose weight,
I have never done drugs, and don’t drink, (had to fess up and take the ciggie comment out, since I do smoke, lol)
I haven’t done these things because I fear losing myself or control,
I love my husband, but spent the first several years of our marriage being convinced if he really knew I wasn’t as strong as he thought, he wouldn’t love me. It’s been the most marvelous gift to realize how wrong I was.
I do believe I have issues from my adoption,
I also have issues with adoption,
I have great adoptive parents and they will always be my parents,
I still want to know the ones who created me,

The insecurity, the need for control, the feeling like a perfect chameleon who can’t even reach back in memory and pick out her own emotions, needs, reactions – very jarring. Joy wrote recently about learning to tell the truth. That’s my job for now. Most especially to myself, scary as that is sometimes. I liked your list Wraith. And Mia – thanks for that heads up on the Adoption Show – I need to go find that.

]]> By: Mia http://wraithswrealm.com/blog/2007/02/28/i-am-i/#comment-14795 Mia Thu, 15 Mar 2007 00:44:09 +0000 http://wraithswrealm.com/blog/2007/02/28/i-am-i/#comment-14795 Wraith I recently listened to The Adoption Show. The interview was with B. J. Lifton. They talked about limited childhood memories. I was blown away. You should check it out. They explain it far better than I could here. It was affirming and healing to hear. I thought I was alone in that. Wraith I recently listened to The Adoption Show. The interview was with B. J. Lifton. They talked about limited childhood memories. I was blown away. You should check it out. They explain it far better than I could here. It was affirming and healing to hear. I thought I was alone in that.

]]> By: Rebecca http://wraithswrealm.com/blog/2007/02/28/i-am-i/#comment-13551 Rebecca Sun, 04 Mar 2007 01:24:16 +0000 http://wraithswrealm.com/blog/2007/02/28/i-am-i/#comment-13551 Wraith, It's great to know more about you. If you are anything like me, I am constantly searching for things I have in common with people. I assume it comes from years of being a square peg in a round family. I too was almost never without a significant other. I'm not very good at being alone. I'm glad that you posted your list. I admire your honesty. Take Care, Rebecca Wraith, It’s great to know more about you. If you are anything like me, I am constantly searching for things I have in common with people. I assume it comes from years of being a square peg in a round family. I too was almost never without a significant other. I’m not very good at being alone. I’m glad that you posted your list. I admire your honesty. Take Care, Rebecca

]]> By: poet http://wraithswrealm.com/blog/2007/02/28/i-am-i/#comment-13306 poet Sat, 03 Mar 2007 01:34:50 +0000 http://wraithswrealm.com/blog/2007/02/28/i-am-i/#comment-13306 i have given this considerable thought. i may even post something similar soon. following you and sending warm thoughts. take care, poet. i have given this considerable thought. i may even post something similar soon. following you and sending warm thoughts. take care, poet.

]]> By: Andreassen http://wraithswrealm.com/blog/2007/02/28/i-am-i/#comment-13281 Andreassen Fri, 02 Mar 2007 22:33:33 +0000 http://wraithswrealm.com/blog/2007/02/28/i-am-i/#comment-13281 We are all so much more complex than we realize, that I've learned. Still not sure about myself... We are all so much more complex than we realize, that I’ve learned. Still not sure about myself…

]]> By: Wraiths http://wraithswrealm.com/blog/2007/02/28/i-am-i/#comment-12915 Wraiths Thu, 01 Mar 2007 16:37:15 +0000 http://wraithswrealm.com/blog/2007/02/28/i-am-i/#comment-12915 7'6"?!?!?!?!?! That's a bit tall. 7’6″?!?!?!?!?! That’s a bit tall.

]]> By: suz http://wraithswrealm.com/blog/2007/02/28/i-am-i/#comment-12861 suz Thu, 01 Mar 2007 12:21:55 +0000 http://wraithswrealm.com/blog/2007/02/28/i-am-i/#comment-12861 wow. you are tall. lol. i once dated a guy who was 7"6..yikes. that was wierd (I am 5'5). Neat list Wraith. wow. you are tall. lol. i once dated a guy who was 7″6..yikes. that was wierd (I am 5’5).
Neat list Wraith.

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