The past month has been up and down. There have been so many reunions in the different groups that I am involved in that it’s now just daggers. I mean, I am happy for them but it still hurts. The little kid is still screaming “when is it my turn???” Along with the reunions are the refusal of the agency to send the letter I wrote and the letter they sent me saying they had completed their search. They had located several men with the name of my birthfather but some have denied it and others haven’t replied. (Heck, they should just send me some pictures and let me decide who it is! :lol: )

Then a birthday. The first birthday since she was contacted. That was fun let me tell you. Oh yeah, and an email from another person dealing with same the agency who has found out some of the non-id was false now that they have reunited.

The the shows. I saw part of the Dead Zone series pilot again where the doctor goes back to Vietnam to find his mom whom he thought was dead. The other was a Stargate SG1 episode called “Windows of Opportunity.” This is my favorite episode because it explored what you might do if you kept reliving the same 10 hours over and over. (Apparently it was others favorite as well because it was voted the best on Sci-Fi.) Anyway, two of the characters get stuck in a time loop and only they remember the day repeating. They keep telling everyone and as the episode progresses one of the other characters asked them if ever decided to just let go since in ten hours everything would reset and no one would know. After that, the two start doing the craziest things. However, it’s gets me to thinking, what would I do? There is only one answer I keep coming to. I would break into the agency and steal MY records. Then I would spend the next loop finding my blood, then the next few trying different things to open a dialog with them. I think I would go back to free the rest of the records as well.

I have an upcoming retreat in Florida coming up next month. Since I will be there I am going to visit my parents and I am planning on going by the hospital that the first searcher mentioned. I am also going to visit the archive while I am there. Who knows, maybe I will walk away with a little more than I have now. I’m not going to break in though. :angel:

I almost wasn’t sure I was going. My work has a policy for the accrual of vacation but on a year when the rate changes it is a different formula which wasn’t written. So when I planned on the vacation along with the Oregon trip last month, I thought I would have a few days. Apparently not. I was so pissed. Later I was telling my wife about it (kind of nervous about it as well because she wants me to go and I didn’t want to lose about two days of pay.) Silly me, when I told her, she told me to go negative, she didn’t care because it was more important for me to see my family and she would make the budget work. How cool is she?

So I am going and my sister is as well but most of the others who went last year aren’t so it’s a bit disappointing. It’s another vacation though. I need another break, although I wish my wife and son were going. Maybe next year.

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