Names
Today is a good day. Today is the day I learned my birthmom’s first name. It’s not much, but I feel like I just found a corner piece for the puzzle of me.
I actually had it for almost one year, but I wasn’t positive about it. Now I am. Now I know. I can’t stop grinning like a fool.
On the flip side, I am annoyed that I had to be sneaky to get this small tidbit, but that can’t overshadow the joy of information.
She is a mystery, a shadow of memory, a part of who I am, a part of my son, a wish.
Now she has a name and my cheeks are sore. ;)
March 27th, 2006 at 10:13 pm
One more step. Yey! I’m happy that you know her first name. It’s a start. :)
March 27th, 2006 at 11:26 pm
Very cool! I remember when I found out my mom’s name was Joyce - I kept saying it under my breath as if I was having a conversation with someone. “Oh, my mom? Oh yes, her name is Joyce.”
My new thing is to say “my sister(s)” as many times as I can in a conversation. -blushing- I can’t help it. LOL
March 28th, 2006 at 5:12 am
Happy for you! One more blank spot filled in.
My son has related to me how he felt when he found out my name. He also was elated that he could finally say, my mother’s name is —–!
March 28th, 2006 at 10:12 am
Wohay!
I hope more pieces follow until all the puzzle is in place.
March 28th, 2006 at 4:50 pm
i just found your blog and made the wonderful discovery that there are a lot of adoptee bloggers out there. i wish you all the luck in fitting all the pieces together, and i’ll visit your blog frequently. i hope you drop by my new blog http://emptycerealbox.blogspot.com and leave a comment once and awhile. it’s good to know there are other people out there who know the empty feelings of being an adoptee. i haven’t gotten to the point yet where i can feel positive about anything. i love the mark twain quote on your site. it’s so apt. -ecb
March 28th, 2006 at 4:58 pm
I still can’t stop smiling.