A day in the life…
The adoption agency called today at 6:00am my time. They located my birthmom and have had contact with her via email, however she does not want contact with me. She did tell them the name of my birthfather and the agency is going to search for him.
So how exactly do I make it thru a day of work?
I don’t know.
I’m so sorry. Prayed for you.
Lady
Oh Wraith’s….I’m sorry. Give her some time. You’ve been searching a long time but this has all been pushed down and tucked away for her. It’s probably quite a shock. Maybe she hasn’t told anyone and she’s afraid. Give her time to think about it….she may come around.
OMG, my friend, I am so sorry! I have so been praying and hoping for you. I have wanted for you to find your birth mom – and have her ready to embrace you. I feel like crying for you.
Making it through the day? Wish I had an easy answer – isn’t one. One moment at a time.
Petunia is right though too. Farmer Boy has told many that the first response is not always the last one – he above all knows that. She’s thinking about you now and we have to pray her heart softens and that she gains the strength to reconnect with you.
I will say a prayer that the fear that is griping her lets go and she changes her mind – soon.
BIG HUGS,
Cookie
P.S.
Do you have to work today? Can you just stay home and do what you need to?
I know there are no words any of us can say that will suffice right now but please don’t forget that you have people out here that care, know deeply some of what you are feeling and are sending as much positive energy your way as possible this very moment.
Mia
Oh damn, Wraith, I wish I could hug you so bad. I don’t even want to imagine what you must be feeling right now. I’m hoping you were able to stay home from work and “regroup.”
I agree with Petunia, she may just need time to process this. In searching, we have some time to prepare ourselves, -sniffles- but that doesn’t make it hurt any less, does it?
We’re here, we love you, we care. Do what you need to do, we’ll be here listening.
You’re living my greatest fear and god how I wish this wasn’t happening to you.
Thank you all for the kind words. i know I will be fine, lord knows I have sat with enough people who have gone thru this as well, but it’s still a jolt no matter how prepared you think you are.
Oh well, gotta figure out what other route I can use now.
“Never give up. Never surrender.”
Cmdr Quincy Taggart, Galaxy Quest
Oh..I am so sorry, but will echo, again, the “give her time” routine.
Maybe?
Wraith, I’m so very, very sorry.
Hang in there (I like your quote).
Wraith,
I’m so sorry this has happened. But hopefully, like everyone else said, she will come around in time. I’ll be praying for you.
Hi Faux, thank you.
Hey Kippa,I will.
Sue, I hope so as well and I love your blog. Tell your husband from one Floridian to another, I feel his pain.
Hi Wraith,
I am so sorry about this. You are in my prayers – praying that you’ll be able to find peace through all of this.
Like I was reminded last night at least I know she is alive and that there is always hope. Not to mention, she now knows I am alive and waiting.
Give her time she might change her mind. I really hope so. Hope you will get news and contact from your father. I’m so sorry, you must be very disappointed.
Wraith, I just saw this. I will echo others and say I’m so sorry, and I hope she’s able to get past her initial fear. I wish some of us moms here could knock on her door, bearing books and sharing our experiences, and help her navigate her initial feelings; help her understand your feelings. Ugh. I’m continuing to hope/pray for you, Wraith.