Still waiting…..
“To resist the influence of others, knowledge of one’s self is most important.” Teal’c (Stargate SG-1)
Well, I’m still waiting for the adoption agency to get back to me for my “one more hour” of searching. I’m more than a bit frustrated by it. I don’t like giving up control and while I understand sometimes you have to in this world, it really frustrates me with them.
I want to call them and ask how it’s going but at the same time I am afraid to because they can easily just say they couldn’t find anything and I have no recourse to prove otherwise. Talk about feeling loss of control.
This would be so much easier if they would just open records for Florida. However, if you have read this post by The Daily Bastardette, you can see that isn’t happening any time soon with the direction they are headed.
My parents have offered to help anyway they can to speed things along but I find it hard to talk to them about the search other than the basics. I guess I don’t want them to see the pain I feel about all this because I don’t want them to feel that’s any of this is their fault, at all. I have tried to get across the fact that they offered is probably the best help they could probably offer.
One thing I asked and they agreed to is to write my story down. I realised I didn’t know my “adoption story” or at least all the details. I have seen pictures of the day I was brought home, read the notes my mom took of my first few months including temperatures, food, occasional rashes, etc. Now I want to know. I want to know what they thought as they were going to the adoption agency, what kind of stuff they had to go thru. What they thought when they first saw me. What happened as they introduced me to the rest of the family. You know, my birth adoption story. So now, I’m waiting for the first two chapters in the book of me.
January 28th, 2006 at 2:21 am
I’m envious you’ll have your adoption story from your parents. It is one of the things I regret not having from mine.
Wraith, does Florida allow adoptive parents to request a copy of the adoption decree? In Illinois, adoptive parents can request this document (but I as the adoptee cannot - how fair is THAT?). Apparently, the decree sometimes contains the names of birthparents or the child’s original name. Worth a shot if you can get it.
-hugs-
~S
January 28th, 2006 at 11:36 am
I have the official documents that they were allowed to have, but it only gives my current name and the names of my parents.
I will ask them though.
January 29th, 2006 at 5:39 pm
Hoping so very much you get information.
January 29th, 2006 at 9:09 pm
thank you, me too!!!