God’s Plan
It’s getting so frustrating searching. I see other adoptees going thru reunions, or just starting and I want to scream why not me? I’ve started support groups in my area, and even started one with members across the nation. Still, I can’t get lucky and reunite. This weekend I even met an adoptee with a crazy story of reunion and all I could think of that I wish I had her story.
I have prayed repeatedly for God’s help and I know it will happen when it happens. I don’t quite believe that everything actually happens in some pre-ordained plan since this sort of contradicts the freedom of choice thing. I do believe God has a plan for us, but allows us to choose the path we will wollow, even if it goes against his. I think of him as a master chess player on a universal level. He can see the choices before each of us at each moment and rather than knowing what we may choose, he see the consequences of each choice and the choices that will arise from that, and so on and so on…… he provides signs and guidance to halp make good choices, but we don’t always hear him, or even listen to him.
I also see him as a parent. The kind that will help you get on the bike and then run beside you yelling pointers to keep you going, but who knows sometimes a fall is the best teacher.
So I go to bed now, with another prayer on my lips. Please keep my family safe, (both of them,) and help me find the side I haven’t met, yet have known since I was born.
January 17th, 2006 at 3:10 pm
If you were born in the state of Victoria in Australia you would be allowed to contact your natural mother but she isn’t allowed to directly contact you. I really hope you will get some information and meet family members, especially your mother.Adding you to my links.
January 17th, 2006 at 3:47 pm
Then again, if I was born in Austrailia, I probably wouldn’t have been adopted in the first place. They had like 4 adoptions last year or something. No country is perfect, but it says something that Australia first attempts to work with the mom prior to relinquishing. And it’s a beautiflu country to boot. I have been to Sydney and a little town called Albany.
January 17th, 2006 at 3:56 pm
They only started helping mums way after you were born. Victoria still has to catch up to the rest of the country. So you probably would have been adopted especially if your mum had been visited by my social worker. Australia really is a beautiful country isn’t it.
January 18th, 2006 at 11:39 am
I searched 20 years before the right key clicked in place and it happened overnight. I was really lucky because I found out I was stolen as a newborn and my family thought I was stillborn. God put back with my family at a time when it was needed most on both sides. Keep on hanging in there and don’t give up.
January 18th, 2006 at 11:49 am
I won’t, as frustrating as it can be. It’s just something I have to do.